Secrets of a Super Saiyan
Chapter One
Speech
Well, it had been merely a single month since Kakarrot had appeared before me. Wow, Ive still been searching for him. Its been so long since I felt his touch on my skin. I wanted him to come back. How could he have known where I was? I had been approaching a planet called Yadrat, but he suddenly teleported away as he had before. I studied the technique, and this time I was ready to use it. Perhaps this time I would stumble upon him without his realization. Good. Hes still on that planet. I can sense that hes about to leave.
I placed two fingers to my forehead and concentrated like he had. I made sure the ship had halted in space so there was no distraction. I knew that once I left the ship, I wouldnt be coming back. Oh well, I would have to pray that Kakarrot wasnt leading me to a deserted place. Now that I realize it, his ki is sparking so damn much. Why? Perhaps hes still trying to control his power. I wonder
Maybe I will find the answer once I am there. I centered my power towards his. I felt the power leaving me as my body swiftly took off towards the strange planet. As soon as I reappeared, I saw Kakarrots punches fly through the air, as if something was there to hit. He had yet to notice me. The only thing I noticed was his wide eyes blazing at the darkness that surrounded the planet. I could see his eyes.
Emotionless, passionate, and bare eyes glazed over with the desire to kill. This was his Super Saiyan side. I could tell that he had hidden this from me the night he came to me. I guess he has always been hiding his primal side from me. I finally saw his motions freeze. He heard my breathing, didnt he? No. He can still sense my ki. "Someones here," I heard him gasp, "and I think its" he turned to look at me, eyes wide, "Vegeta!" He descended to the ground, staring at me with wide eyes. I heard his boots as he backed away, ready to bolt.
"Stop!" I warned him. "Youre my only ticket back to my ship either way." His eyes widened in shock. He seemed a little calmer than before when I had seen him. I guess hes getting better control of it. "Either way why havent you come back to me?" His eyes looked at me with confusion. I scowled. Had he forgotten about kissing me and fondling me? "About that night that you came to visit me"
Kakarrot looked away with a slight discomfort in his expression. "That was a mistake." What? "I didnt mean what I did that day." A small frown came to my face. I walked over to him, watching as his step faltered slightly. Is he afraid? No way. Kakarrot has never been afraid of me, even when I threatened him on Earth. Something must be wrong with him. His ki is overly high for normal. I didnt take this into hand, for I was too angry by his words. He didnt mean it. What would have happened if we had finished it? Would he have meant that either? I walked right up to him, almost nose-to-nose with him. I pulled my hand, watching him gaze at it in confusion. In another moment, there was nothing but a blur, and then I heard the smack on his skin. I had backhanded him. He swung around once, and finally gained his footing but a few inches from where he had been. Once he did, he looked at me in shock. "Vegeta?"
"How dare you say that?" I scolded him. Nothing would change what he had said. A mistake, he says well, Ill just have to make it that way. "You are still not superior to me in any way!" His eyes narrow at me, as though I had taken what we had done and changed it. No. I had not done that. "I chased you out here cause I believed" I cut off, afraid that I would start to cry if I told him the truth, "nothing." I turned away. I couldnt tell him. All those miles I traveled, all that gas I used up to get here and I couldnt even tell him that I felt something for him. "Its nothing."
No. He would not take that as an answer. "There must be something wrong for you to travel this far out to find me. You left your ship out in space, knowing that you wouldnt be able to return." The faintest of smiles crossed my face at the mention. I came all this way, praying that he had been sane when he proclaimed he loved me but he hadnt. "You wouldnt travel all these miles for that thing you call nothing."
I turned sharply, a frown on my face. "I did. I came out here just to see that form once more." That was half true. I had no reason to believe his words. I shouldnt have gotten my hopes up. I guess I deserved this. "I will take your ship halfway to get my own ship back youre coming with me." I walked away from him, no more words spoken between us. He seemed shocked that I hadnt bothered to approach him again.
He growled, making me stop short. No. Ive angered him. Thats what is wrong. "Vegeta," he warned me, "you came here for something else. You didnt just slap me for nothing." Hes got a point. I didnt come here for nothing. I love him. Why cant he notice that? His hands suddenly wrapped around my thighs, pulling me close, as if we were to meld together. Our bodies clicked together, or they would have if his dick had been free and I was unclothed. It was almost like that. His body was so close to mine, I nearly moaned at the contact. What is he doing? "You came for the rest of what I started, didnt you?" No. I didnt. His hands force my ass to rub against his clothed erection. He is turned on. Why? "You did. Or else, you wouldnt be turned on by this." His one hand cupped my member and stroked lightly, making small gasps leave my throat. He ran a finger along my slit, the liquid that had gathered there suddenly wet the pants I had worn today. "Yes I think I understand now. Im desperately sorry, Vegeta." His hands left my thighs, but he did not move away. He nipped my ear before he continued, "that I didnt finish what I started." He licked my neck, trying to seduce me into finishing what he had truly started.
I couldnt let him take me. I have to defend myself. Using what common knowledge I had, I ran a hand down to his member. He laughed playfully, suggesting that I wanted to join in on the foreplay, but I had another motion in mind. Gripping him as hard as I could, I tried twisting it like I would his nipple. His scream echoed through the planet as he fell to his knees. I looked over my shoulder to find him holding his essential love machine. Good riddance. I hate him anyway. "I am not a whore."
He looked at me, his eyes full of sadness and grief. "I thought that you loved me back. Thats why I told you that when I met you on Earth." What? He had told me that cause he automatically assumed that I loved him back? How could he say that? I didnt clearly say it. "You hate my Saiyan side, but at least you accepted the fact I wasnt human. You meant more to me than Chi-Chi thats why I buried you on Planet Namek." He buried me? I was dead, so how would I know? He acts as though I were still somehow conscious of what had happened after he placed me in that hellhole. "I guess I just played it for a fool." His eyes were cast down in shame. "You dont love me as I had hoped. Guess I got my"
"Im the one who gave their hopes up!" I screamed. Im tired of this guessing game. I tire of his idiotic way of toying with my mind. His eyes connected with mine as I told him this. He looked confused, but the vengeance I wanted would do nothing to take over what I had done. "Kakarrot, today I came here, expecting you to say right away that you loved me." I turned away, folding my arms with a dark look. "I tire of games." I frowned. "I really do. Especially when I believed I was in love with you."
His eyes widened. He hadnt known about this. This is the first time I have admitted to anything other than the normal being of I have pride. I am a prince, I shouldnt have to kneel before another. Why do you make me do it? "Is that true?" His voice alerts me to him being aware of my presence. Hes not laughing at me like others have. What? I turned to him, cocking an eyebrow. "You love me?" His voice is so tender and full of wonderment. He truly didnt know. His hands are soft and gentle as they touch my face, cupping my cheeks, as if to kiss me. "If it is I love you too."
Tears gathered in my eyes. Did he truly mean that? If I allow myself to fall, will he catch me? "I dont think I believe you." His eyes snap wide, but he doesnt dare stop as his mouth closes around mine. Oh, you are talented. His arms circle my body, holding me so close I almost cant breathe. His hands thread on my back as he pushes his tongue into my mouth unwillingly. No. Dont touch me. But, he does. His mouth is so gentle even with my unwillingness to open up for him. His tongue is soft and warm inside my mouth. I fall deeply in love with the taste of him. Why? It is so good. His mouth breaks away, some of my saliva trailing down his chin.
"Was that what you expected?" he asked me with seriousness in his voice. I had never heard him sound so serious before. Other than when he fought his enemies, he didnt talk serious, only when it was matter of importance, which meant almost never. I had found that it was never his style to do so. Whoa, I barely knew him, yet I knew so much about him. I ask you once more: Was that what you expected? Which part? I mean, he just touched me in the shower a month ago, and tonight he had fondled me, and finally managed to kiss me. Did he mean the kiss? I nodded dumbly. "Then why do we hesitate to accept our love?"
I turned to him with wide, confused eyes. "You mean you would accept that I love you?" His voice is always calm and loving, yet, before, it was so serious. He meant every word he said when he sounded like that. I can tell that he means everything he says but only when hes like that. Kakarrot will you accept me? "Kakarrot, are you sure that you will accept me?"
A smile touches his face as he holds my hands in his. I have never seen such a loving, accepting look on his face. He looked like he would defiantly accept me. I saw nothing in his eyes but utter love. I can tell that this will be nothing but true. "I do."
"But I killed people." I didnt want to believe that he could accept someone like me. I was a murderer. "I did horrible things. I killed people and laughed as they screamed." His hands never let go of mine, but I could see understanding in his eyes. How could he accept me so easily? "I murdered so many and raped! You can't accept me! Im disgusting!" He shook his head, that smile still on his face. Tears once again fell down my cheeks as he cupped my face. "You cant accept someone whos experienced so much rape and torment from the devil himself. I was tormented, whipped, and raped by Freeza!"
He froze, his hands slowly dropping from my face. He hadnt known about that! His eyes dropped to my small body, realizing that my wounds even showed through the armor. He could see a scar that ran along the edge of my neck. "My God" he whispered, "he tore you apart." Thats an understatement. He didnt just tear me apart, he ripped me apart. There was nothing good in it for me. I hated it. "I promise, I will treat you good. You will be the Prince I always believed you to be." You did? Kakarrot you love me? Truly? I have never seen someone so in love with me before. Only Raditz came close, but even he laughed at me when I admitted I loved him back. Damn it. His hands once again cupped my face. "You will not see anything but me. You will always love my touch. I will make everything worth the wait for true love! I promise you that, Vegeta."
Kakarrot I never knew you could mean so much with your loving words. I guess I overestimated you when you came to us. I had never known you could accept someone so harshly treated and disrespected all that God had given him like me. I had never given you the chance. I finally gave in. I guess I cant hide from my true feelings forever. "I accept." Your eyes are wide as I finally bow my head in respect. "I accept your generous offer. I hope you make it worth the time."
He nearly jumped off the walls with his puppy dog eyes. His tongue hung out, saliva falling everywhere as he bounced. "Yes!" he screamed to no one. Wonder crossed my mind, but not before a harsh kiss was planted to my lips. How did he do that so fast? He was all the way over there I lost the train of thought as his scent invaded my nose. It is so lovely. Kakarrot I like your taste. His hands tangled in my hair and massaged gently, trying to make me join in. Oh, Kakarrot, I love you. I have searched endlessly for you. No sleep or nothing.
We broke away, a small smile on my face. "Kakarrot" I whispered lightly. His taste was so majestic. Had he ever looked at me? Ive never noticed him bat an eye in my direction against Freeza. Perhaps he hid it for fear I would be attacked. I guess it makes sense. His love is pure gold. I mean, he accepts a murderer like that and no one would ever do that. I can see that he means well with his loving words, not that he would put me down; and I know that he cares deeply for everyone, including the most disgusting of enemies like that Namek Piccolo. "You care."
He smiled greatly. "Of course. Why wouldnt I?" he asked with a confused look on his face. I am playing with fire now. If it decide that it is too much I shook my head. I batted my hand in a way of saying I meant nothing by it. He is always an idiot with that. He stares at me with confused faces. "I want to change, Vegeta." I looked at him with a shook look on my face. Change? What does he mean by that? He has never wanted to change before, why now? "I want to learn about Saiyans."
My eyes widened in shock. "Now you want to know that truth of our violent race? You told me that you hated us." I know that he is merely trying to please me, I can see it in his eyes, but he should not go against his good nature. I folded my arms and smirked. "No. You are too good natured to become a true Saiyan. You would regret the choice." His eyes connect with mine, determining if I speak the truth. You wouldnt know what being a Saiyan would do to you. "Tell me, do you like blood?"
His mouth drops open in shock. "Blood?" He cocked his head to the side in confusion. "What do you mean by that? Blood? I know that I have Saiyan blood, and that I dont know much about Saiyans, but come on! I know that much!" He scowled darkly, as if I had hurt him. His eyes widened with shock as he realized what I meant. He hadnt thought that I meant something so primal. "You mean, actual blood? As in, you want me to kill!?"
I frowned. No. Blood stains on his hands would just defile his loving embrace. I dont want him to get defiled by anything. He is my Kakarrot. Hes a loving, caring man. "No. I dont mean for you to kill." His eyes narrow at me with wonder. I smiled a little, touching his hands with my own for a little gesture of idolism. "Your hands should not be defiled as mine are. My hands are completely defiled, thats why I wear gloves."
He suddenly felt vigor enter him, or so I thought. When he gripped my hands back, rubbing my gloved digits lightly, I noticed that his face had a certain determination about it. He had never looked so lost in the look of something like he had my hands. He scowled darkly, gripping the hem of my gloves, and yanked both of them off. A small look of pain overtook my face. Why was he looking at my hands? I dont like the look of my hands. Scars wound along the edges of my arm as well as my wrist. "You were hurt by him so damn much." He held my wrist to his mouth and licked along my scar, as if attempting to heal the wound. "I wish I could heal these wounds." He smiled up at me in a wondrous way. I stared at him in curiosity. "You didnt deserve that. If I remove these scars, your skin is lovely to the touch like everything else about you. Your soul is clean almost completely wonderful."
My eyes lower to the hand intermingled in mine. Something about seeing you bow to me is so loving. I wish you would be my lover. I guess I am wishing for too much. I shouldnt even look at you. You are pure love and I am disgust to all people. I guess we fit together. "You are so loyal to one you once hated." His eyes connect with mine with wonder. "I am a prince, yet everyone looks down at me on Earth, acting as if I am the true monster."
"No." His smile is comforting to me. "Freeza intrigued you to do all those violent and ugly things. Saiyans couldnt be all bad if they had children." I wonder what he means by that. What does it take to make children? "They must have loved someone in order to create a kid." I frowned, shaking my head. No. They would never be so idiotic to allow someone so damn close to their hearts. They died because they wouldnt accept their fate. "No? I guess I am just putting it out there for us, Vegeta." What? Is he saying? "I love you back, Vegeta."
No way! "You do!?" He nodded sweetly, his face a deep look of passionate love, one that I would never believe. I dont think anyone could be so loving as you are right now, Kakarrot. "Thank you deeply, my love." His mouth drops as his eyes widen, shock upon his face. Oh, thats right. I never told you of how I felt. I guess I should tell you now. You might love me even more to hear such a murderer admit to it. "I love you too, Kakarrot."
His face lights up in actual enjoyment. I guess you really like me that must be why you arent running away any more. A sudden look of shock comes upon his face as he lets go of my hands, backing away in fright. What is wrong? I dont understand. His face is a look of total horror. Is it something I did? "I need to leave now. There is nothing left for me here."
"But I have no ride," I mentioned harshly, "so you are wiling to leave me with no ride or anything!?" A small frown came upon his face at the mention of this. I could tell by the look on his face that he really didnt want me coming along. "Drop me off on my ship. Its just about five miles out of the gravitational pull." He turned away, nodding towards his ship. I could tell by the dark look on his face that he was fighting something I couldnt see. I followed him as he made his way back to his ship. I want to see him break. Even if I have to chase after him again it will be worth it to see him cut loose. I want to see the Saiyan in him. Thats my plan.
TBC.
Authors Note: Hope you enjoyed this chapter. Its not over yet, but this one wont last long. I dont do long series none like Planet Vegeta. So, this one is almost over. Unlike some writers out there, my stuff is freshly written and posted straight with no beta. I dont do beta. I dont like handing other people my work. But I do it for Julesie because shes a close friend of mine.
To Reviewers: Hope you enjoy this chapter! If you have reviewed this fic by the time this gets up, thank you for the lovely reviews. This one was fresh out of my head. I do plan on continuing it, but it wont be a long series just a few small chapters. Virtually every warning for this fic. Rape will come later, as well as some lemons, and possibly a threesome. It is basically based on what Goku told Vegeta before the androids or one of them about not being able to fully control the transformation to Super Saiyan thats what this is. I got the idea from a doujinshi I read that was called something like Virgin Moon? Really good doujinshi, you can find it at Pixelgoddesss Closet. If you read this, review with your opinion. I would love to hear it.
To Other Reviewers: Enjoy this one. If you have reviewed this fic by the time this chapter gets posted, thank you.
To Julesie: Well, hun, Chapter 5 of your fic will take a little while, but since my cousins in town, Ive got him on the pointing out job. He should tell me everything. I hope you get well soon. If you remember, please finish downloading the doujinshis for me. Enjoy this fanfic. I know I am. I love writing it.
To Zofo: I know youre out of town, but I have translated a few parts of the manga. I cant read the kanji so well, since it isnt as big, but a friend of mine has offered to help too. Hes in Japan. Hopefully between the two of us, we can get it done. But, for now, enjoy this fanfic. Its based on the whole Goku unable to control his transformation to Super Saiyan after the fight with Freeza, after escaping from exploding Namek thing. Also based on the one year he was on Yadrat. But has a few difference to it. It is Goku x Vegeta, after all. Hope you have fun with your buddies!
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